Your type of persons are called "agnostics" who have a doubt whether god exists or not. As I have mentioned above, it is the indivdual's choice to beleive or not.
Believe in yourself. Believe in the principles of neo-humanism. Believe in the basic goodness of all humanbeings. You are not inferior to a person who lived hundreds of years back and there is no need in somethng written in a book thousands of years back. Use your own judgement.
