Dear Subramani, I dont know whether u would read this or not, but if some how if rediff people can show you this page where people have jotted down their true feelings about your courage , I think that would be the greatest reward u may have in ur life.
Many years ago, when i was a kid, i read in Reader's digest the definition of COURAGE : ITS JUST STAYING THERE FOR ONE MORE MOMENT .
I am unable to remember the exact words in english but the meaning is still very clear in my mind , its that if you can stand there for one more moment in times of despair ---that is Courage.