Hats off to your attitude. It would have been so easy to play the blame game as you have pointed it out. But then, you have taken this loss and all I have to tell you is that your husband would be proud of you (if he reads this!). Will pray to the almighty that God gives you courage in future too, so that your daughters too grow up imbibing the right spirit, character and values that you and your husband embody. His soul would definitely be resting in peace ... Well, thanks to Prem (am a big fan of your style) to let the story the way it should be - from the heart ...