Arrey Bhai, thats where you need to get along with God. You know, Jesus did all things right & yet died on the cross. You know, Dinakran was able to pray & ask God to heal others while he himself couldnt do the same to himself.
But for both Jesus & Dinakran, God is common na? You shoudl have asked God directly? Why do u try to find answers among a multitude of confused people? You are as if these confusions have been answered to all except you.