Sorry on behalf of "My Prayers..." Do you really want to know?? or just wanted to have a go? I have written enought for you yaar. Why dont you be yourself & ask God these questions? Because God loves you, he will do anything to get ur Qs answered. But for that you need to meet Him at a place where nobody knows you, neither you know anybody. I mean, Just forget what anybody else knows about God/Jesus and all.