Prabhupada is dead.All his disciples have moved on.Some have become Enlightened Gurus themselves.There is nothing permanent in this world.The Guru Parampara goes on.The sooner you realize this the better for you.I suggest you take a trip to Mathura & Vrindavan to recharge yourself spiritually.Also do some Bhakti Sadhana with a true Bhakti Guru - since you like Prabhupada , you can pick up someone from his Gaudiya Sampradaya.
