I don't know what of Hindu are you. Hindu who can't give respect to a widow. You can't be Hindu. You are bringing disrespect to Hinduism by using abusive language against her and fellow Hindu.
You look like a frustrated BJP leader who played every dirty tactics to get power but was failed.
Since you have read Gita countless time, you must have read about Dhayan yoga chapter. Where Lord Krishna teaches you how to control your mind. This defiantly help you.
