Yes JGN, I don't believe in the traditional/popular god (nor do I in heaven/hell, life hereafter, holy books, etc). I do think we have freewill and control of our destiny.
Many people argue that for them god is the ultimate truth/knowledge, which all of us are after. Ofcourse, this is confusing issues. We can all say we are after the ultimate truth/knowledge and do away with the word "god", as this word really took on a very specific meaning.
I think my posts reflect whatever you said in this email and will in future too. And did you read "God's Debris" by Scott Adams. It has an interesting concept (for me) of life/creation. I am presently reading Marshal's "Necessity of atheism".