I admire your candidness. You are right that all scriptures are difficult to understand without a knowledgeble person near by. My experience could be a guide. I joined a Church for 2 years to learn about Christianity properly. I learnt to appreciate a lot of things about Xanity but did not find a lot of stuff agreaable. These days internet is a good resource. It took me another 2 years to understand Islam. I have been studying ancient India and Hinduism these days for the last 2 years in my spare time. I must say that reading Islam and Xanity has increased my respect for several aspects of Hinduism and I have also gained a fair amount of understanding on the drawbacks in Hinduism
So yes, it take time but the results are quite rewarding.
