By the way are you aware about your own history and ancestors, their agony, their pain etc. etc. If you have anything please read those.
Introspect youself, come to the truth, decide yourself, shake yourself, sit in the room with closed eyes and invent yourself.
I wonder how the Islamic fanaticism has killed the humanism, when one starts pitting, vomiting and urinating on their own ancestors, whose blessing they are.