Staying in India does not make you a patriot. Infact you are a disgrace to us Indians for sharing such inconsiderate thoughts.
You have some serious issues and these are the same kind issues Cho Seung-Hui had. If these emotions are bottled up, they culminate in something horrendous like what he did at Virginia Tech.
I suggest you see a therapist as soon as possible. It may save some lives some day.
