Hi, First You have to say thanks to god, becos now only you are feeling and thinking about your god.
God is giving breathing each and every second to you. But you didn't thank or think to him. God is doing entire chemical industry run inside your body. For that also you didn't think or thank to hi. You only felt, you want to become familiar in public or you want to prove your talents to others, that also god has to give. Reality is you can't do anything. But you can't accept it.
Now only god has focussed more intensively to flower love inside your heart by these small tests. Sorry for that if I hurt to you, my intention is not to argue or hurt you, I just give clarity to see your beautiful life. First thanks to god which you had got every second in your past life other than flood insident. Then you can able to realize what I am talking about.