What is wrong with free thinking! You are the way you are because your elders brain washed you completely with theories of religion and stupid god! Problem is we Indians live too long with our parents. They manipulate too much. I was raised in a similar situation but in a christian family. I have gotten over it after 2 years of moving away from my family and facing real world. All religions, religious texts are full of crap! Their rules are so contradictory that if you follow one rule you will break the other! If you want to believe in divine powers get over with your religious sentiments and culture and think independently. God himself is living in a strip club high on dope because he got tired of complaints from religious funcumentalists and traditionalists!