I just loved reading your experiences in life, Not many are lucky to go through all these facets of life, Many don't have the courage to do what they want... But appreciate you for your courage to live through all those tough times...But u had good times too, remember... So you may not be lucky enough to be in ur dream world forever...but you lived your dream if only for a little time...Much better than those who stay by the sidelines...just looking and complaining at the brave ones like you...Ciao