Dear Jaya Simha, What i can surmise from your write-up is your acute lack of correct attitude. Success is not abt how u handle tension or how many things u have to maintain to take care of things. Its abt your attitude. When u said that Job gives a regular pay check and u thought without any tension??? Arey in your business u pay the bills on time for your own good and in job u pay the bills of somebody for his good!! In ur business each ounce of your effort brings in reward with extra business or reduced cost, and in job it is interpreted as chamcha giri. I have worked in MNC's as well in small companies. The bottomline is, have passion in whatever u do, life will be a dream of roses, despise what u do ... life will remain a hell for u whatever, wherever and whenver u do.