hi, although it seems that she doesnt care and shes perfectly a-ok, she obviously does still care. she has a child with you so that means that she will have her/his best intrests in mind and she would want to have you as their father. although im only young, i have found out that drastic measure of even talking about not wanting to be here will only make the situation worse. you need to show her that u can get your life on track and if the only role u can play in her life is the father to her child, thats better than nothing and it is giving you a litle bit of hope.