I've been dating this girl for 6 years off and on.... two breaks and that is it.... this time it's not because of either of us.... it's her dad..
We have been dating again for literally 4 days shy of one year.... the first 9 months of the relationship were amazing when we were allowed to see eachother.... Don't get me wrong.... I love this girl more then anyone in the world.. She is what makes me feel like a whole person... everytime, even before we were together, i felt like there was a hole in my life that wasn't filled. She fills that void in my life because i can feel, see, and sense all of the love from her..... Her dad has been a huge part of why we haven't always worked.... Her dad has said to her specifically that he doesn't want to lose her yet.... She's about to turn 19 and doesn't want to leave on bad terms with her family.... But the current situation is just power for him to say that she can't see me.... The way everything goes with her family is very complicated... she loves her dad and doesn't want to disrespect him.... cause he's family... and i understand that.... but her dad shut me out of her life....
I took two hits of weed and she doesn't like me doing drugs.... she got really down.... her dad interrogated her basically for 2 hours to see why she was down and she ended up just telling him what i did..... He had an opportunity with a justification to do it.... so he did.... He told her that as long as she was living under his roof, that she wasn't allowed to see me... It's been about a week since he did this and i can't take life anymore.... i can't hang out with my friends cause they are all couples.... i can't go out into public cause i only notice people holding hands and just having fun with people that they truly love..... It's the most depressing time in my life.... Her and I broke up yesterday because we both know it will be too hard to handle this waiting till she moves out...
I just want to be with her... i just want to be able to lay down in her lap watching a movie and be able to stare up at her and have her look back at me... Whenever i look into her eyes like that, i see all the love she has to offer, all the feelings she has for me... they pour out of her soul and into mine and make me feel like the best person in the world..
This post isn't so much for advice..... but as to cherish love if you have it..... don't let it go over stupid things.... trust the person you love.... if you can feel that they love you.... then love them back and don't torment yourself....... just have fun with them.... love them forever.... if you have true love.... don't let it get away.... and if you have to take a break from one another..... try to stay up.......... don't let the world get you down.... don't do what i do...... don't just be depressed about everything.... i can't help but listen to songs that remind me of her... i can't help crying about her.... i miss her more then anything in the world.......
Never let love slip through your fingers.... fight for it... do whatever you can to keep it.... love will make you the happiest person when you have it.... but it will hurt you the most when you don't have it anymore... it may take a while to finally hit you... but it will when you lose it........ Love everyone you can... have friends, have family.... but always have that special someone who makes you feel like a child inside..... makes you feel like nothing in the world could brind you down when you spend time with them..... Love them with no regrets... love them and do things for them that will make them smile and laugh.... do eveerything you can to make love stay with you..........
I love her more then anything in the world....... and all i can do right now is wait..... it will take months... but she's worth years of my life... i've already waited 6....... she's the love of my life.... i will never let her go as long as her and i both are living...
Tyler Davis Tyeece_and_blt@yahoo.com thanks for reading..... live, love, smile, laugh, cry, die
